edencanflyy
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"I'm just a dirtbag
Under the weather
And overrated"
Dirtbag - Brad Sucks
"'Cause I am whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news, everyday I am
I don't know, that's just the way I am"
The Way I Am - Eminem
Hello! My name is Eden. I use mostly they/them but I don't mind with the occasional she/he. I'm a hobbyist freelance artist located in PA, USA. I am in my 20's (Dec 15th is my birthday)I am neurodivergent and tend to talk about my hyperfixations. (Left 4 Dead, Toontown, parrots and crows are a few examples off the top of my head.)------------------------------On my vent channel I talk about serious and triggering topics such as self harm, suicide, childhood sexual abuse, grooming, child abuse / parental abuse and abusive cycles.I have been in therapy since Jan 2020 and I am medicated.------------------------------I have been professionally diagnosed with:
-Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
- Bipolar 1
- Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)
- Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
- Child Sexual Abuse Syndrome (CSAS)------------------------------
If you wish to know more about my alters, please click the button below:
Please keep in mind, you are only seeing a glimpse into my life and trauma, please do not assume you know me or be parasocial with me. I'm just another face in the crowd of the internet.
"And if I meant every word that I ever said
You would probably question the life I have led
You’d probably think I’m an evil, broken person
And you would be right."
Downhill - Lincoln
Normally, I don't talk about my system much but I do get alot of questions when it comes to my headmates so I'd like to offer as much as I'm allowed about them so it can answer any questions you may have about them /genPlease note the following:- I, Eden, am mostly front stuck meaning I have no knowledge about if we have any other alters than the ones below (and a few in dormancy from when I was a kid and teen).- I do not know what our innerworld looks like. When I'm "pulled from front", I'm only allowed to be in the "control room" or like I loving call it "the room." The room is dark and empty besides a HUGE screen that shows what our eyes see.- We DO NOT have a collective name OR a system name. We also do not use emojis to indicate ourselves for personal reasons / personal preference.- No, you cant talk to my alters willy nilly, thats not how DID works. If you happen to talk to one of my alters directly, we were expose to a trigger (pos or neg). We have boundaries in place when it comes to headmates fronting. (Esp regarding public situations online.)- No I will NOT tell you my alters real names. I do this for our own privacy and safety.- I am not the original host. I have no clue if she went dormant or fused with me. I formed around / between so time around the ages of 10 to 13 from what I can remember personally. I say this due to having no memories personally of events before that age besides a few that in them "does not feel i personally experienced" but are vivid enough to make me question if the og host fused with me.- I really don't care if you fakeclaim me / think I'm faking. I dont need validation from strangers on the internet who most likely got their info from tumblr or tiktok. I have been professionally dx and thats all I have to say on that matter.- If it's not regarding a question directly about my system, DID or an alter, please refer to me, Eden, directly. I personally do not like being chalked up as just a system. I feel it takes away from what I and even my headmates, have personally gone though. (I reply as such and do not use "we" unless it's regards to my system or what both me and another alter(s) think) I am my own person and like to be treated as such. Thank you. /gen------------------------
"Red"
She/TheyRed is the first alter to ever make herself known to me when I was around 7-8 years old.She is very confrontational and purposefully wants to be portrayed as that and combative though, in my opinion, underneath the mean act, she only ever wanted to been seen and honestly is very sweet esp to those she sees suffering injustices she can relate to but she is just as quick to change her mind when it comes to disrespect or if there is conflicting information and isn't quick to forgive.She is a recovering persecutor and has come a long way from how aggressive she use to be. Red is the headmate most likely to cofront.
Her art style is the most like mine due to years of hiding/not knowing the fact we are system.
"Grey"
doesnt care what pronouns you use but i use mostly she/her for herGrey does not wish to give much info other than she formed in middle school to deal with the hardships of our chaotic life. She was co-host of the system from 6th grade to the summer of 8th grade.
She doesnt like to draw but I love making her ocs!
"Baby Blue"
they/she???Baby Blue (BB) from my knowledge was the first alter to form and is the main trauma holder when it comes to the sexual abuse we experienced from the ages 3 to 8.I know very little about BB due to her quietly back seating and being dormant for many years. They HATE pedophiles and child abusers so much and is extremely vocal about it to the point that it's like 80% of what they talk about and vent about.
"Sunflower Yellow"
she/herSunflower Yellow (SY) was the host back in 2017 for a few months but formed around 2015. She recently came out of dormancy.SY is very bubbly and sweet , with a heart of gold. When she was host she often loved to take photos and socialize with everyone. She adores cute animals and faces the world with a mostly positive outlook.
She sadly will take anyone's word on anything without a second thought and has a tendency to be overly forgiving, even if the person purposefully wanted to harm us.SY is currently learning about and processing everything that has happened to us since she stepped way and went dormant in 2017 due to really awful things we were going through in that period of our life.
"I love it when it's like that
Go ahead, I'll get ya right back
I love it when you fight back
I'm up, so, where yo' flight at?"
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"Give me everything you took from me."
Keep Up - Odetari
FAQ
"What is the purpose of your vent account?"
I use it to cope with my trauma and disorders. I've heard from many people that it also has helped them on their healing journey so that's kinda cool."Can I ask you questions about your abusers / groomers?"
I don't mind much but I probably wont answer if it either can link back to their socials or put me in harms way."Can I draw you / your alters sonas?"
Sure, I have boundaries tho ... Please do not draw me or my alter's ocs involving anything to do with our trauma (example: with my abusers or anything regarding them, partaking in SH or sui acts or anything you wouldnt want your own momma to see basically. and as much as i know BB wouldnt mind, please dont draw our ocs k*lling our abusers ToT idm if you draw diff expressions or draw "light vents" with our ocs ((like them crying or angry)), its also okay to draw our ocs in a more positive light.
"Can I take inspo off your vents?"
Yeah, please do credit me tho.
"POV (POV)
You're an icon 'cause you're me
Think about how many people know they're gay because of me"
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"You fuck with me, you'll have to find a different space
Stay in your place
Get out my face"
mos thoser - Food House, Fraxiom, and Gupi
where to find me
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